Learned something at church.

It was very nice to get to attend Sunday School at church this past Sunday. It was weird getting to sit with all the adults and not have kids running around or squirming in their chairs. I do have to admit I do miss the music time that the kids get to do, but I degress.
I was struck by the topic and the discussion on forgiveness and how being angry only hurts you. I already have heard this before but I needed to hear it again. I have been holding some hard feelings towards the Foster Care System and the caseworker inparticular. I am feeling better most days but every once in a while a random thought will enter my mind and I will get mad, and then replay the things that bothered me the most during the whole process. I realized that I am not being Christ-Like. That Jesus doesn't ask anything of us - just repentance and that is all when we sin, but we (me) expect to be paid back for anything we suffer by the hands of another. We expect this no matter what and will not forgive until we are justified. I was hit hard by this fact...because I do it all the time.
I realized that Heavenly Father and Jesus want me to work on letting go of my feelings...but I do also know that it will take some time. I am going in the right direction because I want to forgive.