Emotions

I found this really cute show for Bug to watch! It is called "Jack's Big Music Show". I saw the show for the first time last Friday (Groundhog Day) and they had such a cute episode about Groundhog Day. Bug laughted and laughted throughout the whole program. I did too! I am excited to find a new show.

The weekend was pretty quite. Bug still has his cold. We didn't end up attending church because he had a yucky cough and runny nose. We have been cooped up in the house for 4 days now.

Today we went to Occupational Therapy, and well lets just say.....I am tired from the session. I kind of lost it. After hearing Bug stream like he was dieing and watching the Therapyst trying to calm him down with doing a Gum/Teeth tech. (putting her gloved finger into his mouth and rubbing his gums) and then seeing how freaked out he was (body shaking so bad, face beet red, and his hands clawing at her hands, I finally snapped. I yelled out "STOP! Please just stop!" She was a great therapyst. I know what she is doing is helping....because I have seen so many great advances this past two weeks. Bug enjoys having a blanket on him now, he is letting me brush, wash, rinse, and cut his hair, and he is really chattering alot lately. He is climbing with more confidence, and he just seems more happy when he wakes up in the morning, and after naps. I know that the sessions with the Therapyst are working, but seeing him so upset really got to me. He was so scared. I had a flash of watching my child being hurt by someone. Kind of like I was allowing him to be hurt (sexual abuse, or physical abuse). It is hard to explain. We continued the session with me holding the Bug's hand, which helped him but I think might have helped me more. We continued with other activities like playing like we were a butterfly in a coccon and rocking back and forth, and then the rollers (where he went willingly into the rollers kind of like a tunnel), and then lastly playing with some balls in a toy gumball machine. He did great after the Coccon activity when his Toy Giraffe "Jenny" got to have a turn and then it was his turn.

I was so embarressed about my out burst, but I just could not help myself. I started crying and as I type this blog, I am starting to cry too. It was just so emotional. Because of this, I have been tired the rest of the day. I got a little nap in (which is unheard of for me- I was a horrible nap taker as a kid too).

Anyway....
Tomorrow will be a busy day for us again.
Just wanted to let you all know what has been going on in our house for the weekend.
Sun shine today....Helped a little.