Letting Go and Saying Goobye is HARD!

Well after a rough two days my cat Kiki passed away this morning.  Sometime between 5:30am and 6am. 

This pictures was taken November 28, she loved to look out the front window.
 

 It was all very sudden.  I noticed she was sleeping a bit more over the past week, and just chocked it up that she was an older kitty.  But then on Saturday when my son hugged her (he does this a lot) she seemed wobbly on her legs when he stopped.  She was sitting on the couch next to me, when he hugged her.  I helped her steady herself and that is when I touched her and felt she wasr really skinny.
I knew something was wrong.

My husband got wet food for her when he came home, and she ate it.  She seemed to perk up a bit.  I thought, maybe I am just worrying for nothing...but in the back of my mind, I felt I needed to prepare.

Sunday morning things took a turn for the worse...and I spent most of the day crying and just spending time with her.  I spent the night on the couch with her and early this morning she passed while I pet her.  Letting her go was very hard.  I feel jipped that I didn't get to have her as my pet longer.

Ladybug with Kiki.  Her first night in our home.



This is Kiki's first night in our home.
 

Kiki came into my life back in early November of 2012.  She was a stray that was in my neighborhood.  She showed up at my house one evening and I was in awe how sweet she was.  I took her door to door through my neighborhood to find her home.  She was sooo sweet, and so tiny.  The single guys living next door told me that she just showed up in the neighborhood before Halloween and that she had been sleeping in their garage at night.  They had no idea who she belonged too.  I decided right then, that she needed a permanent home.  Winter snow was coming and there was no way she was going to make it through the winter.  So I put her in my cat carrier and took her to my vet.  Had some blood work done and she was cleared.  She didn't have feline Leukemia.  She was allowed in the house and she made her self at home.

She was AMAZING!  And I have to say she was the BEST Cat, second to Carona my deaf white kitty.  She would climb on my back and want to sniff my hair, and she would lay on my shoulder when I was laying on the cough.  She was soooo tiny.  So amazingly tiny!    And she has the funniest face!.

Enjoying the sunlight from the window.
 

 

I will miss her.  Wish I had her longer in my life.  I am trying to be grateful for the time I did have with her.  I have no idea why she got so sick and died in two days time.  Sudden and painful.

Time will heal.

Kiki trying to jump up in my lap.  :)
 

You will be missed

Yesterday I had to make the worse decision in my life. I had to call the vet and find out if I could have my almost 16 year old orange tabby cat Sidney put to sleep. She has been sick for the past 6 to 8 months but yesterday when I looked at her I could tell she needed to go. It was hard to make the call, and I cried on the phone with the receptionist. Bryan took her in for me and I stayed home with the kids and my friend Alyson's son, who were all GREAT distractions during this very sad time for me.



Bug came up to me and asked me why I was crying, and I told him that I missed Sidney. His sweet reply was, "I will go bring her home for you Mommy." He can be just so sweet and caring.

Picture taken in late January 2009

I did get the opportunity to say good bye to her. I pet her and talked to her before she left to go to the vet. I told her how I appreciated all that she had brought to my life. Good and Bad. It was all worth experiencing.

Some of the things I want to remember about Sidney:

1. She was my sister's cat, but my sister got her before finishing up beauty college so I got to be her Mommy the first two months she lived with me. Carona was my cat at the time. Carona could not hear and when Sidney first met her she hist and hist at Carona as she came closer and closer to her. Sidney was so tiny, and Carona was a BIG girl even at a year old. I kept Sidney in the bathroom while I was at work and let her out when I was home to make sure that Carona didn't upset her to much. I remember coming home one day to find the bathroom door open and no Sidney. I soon found her in the guest room laying on the bed in the sun with Carona, actually suckling off her. Carona had already been spayed, so she had no milk but Sidney needed to suckle. They were the best of friends from that moment on.

2. I found them both on top of one of my very big book shelves one day keeping warm near the heater vent in the ceiling.

3. She would run and run around my bedroom at night, and jump on my head all the time. I ended up sleeping on the couch for the first year she lived with me.

4. She was so shy...didn't like strangers.

5. Sat on Bryan's shoulder's all the time when we first got married.

6. She could open doors. We had to switch door nobs in the first house we bought. At night we would keep the cats (Carona and Sidney) in a room so that they would not destroy the house or meow at our bedroom door. We always gave them treats to make it ok for them. Sidney quickly learned she could jump on the handle of the door nob and open the door. We ended up locking the door to prevent her from getting out at night.

7. When Carona passed away almost 4 years ago she became good buddies with Pepe' even though she didn't want any thing to do with him when we first brought him home.

8. She loved to bite the wire brush I have to brush the cats.

9. She never got her lower fangs. Never came in!

10. She loved to cuddle up on the couch with me all the time even the night before I had to put her to sleep.