Ouch.

When will the pain go away???
I went into the OB today because my c-section scare was bothering me. It was red, and sore.
The doctor I saw didn't think it was infected but gave me antiobiotics. I hope they help.

Home and healing...

I am home now. I got home on Saturday afternoon. I am doing well. I am working on a post about what I have to deal with right now. Just wanted say I am doing well.

Where do I begin???

So much has happened since my last post.

Some happy; some not so happy but rather scary.


I was released from the hospital on Monday afternoon, after my OB doctor came by to check on me. This was one day early, but he seemed to think I was doing fine, and I was soooooo excited to be getting home and starting my new life with my little family. I missed my husband, my son, and my own bed.

My Mom arrived in town on Monday morning after a short delay with her flight.

So I came home at around 5pm on Monday the 25th. Unfortunately, Bug was very sick from the flu, and he had a really hard afternoon; throwing up several times. Bryan got Bug to bed. He was sleeping in our bedroom with Bryan while I planned to sleep on the couch because I could prop myself up better. Bryan left for the drug store to fill my pain medication, but when he got to Walgreens the pharmacist would not fill it because there was no dose amount on the Rx. He had to go back to the Labor and Delivery to get a new prescription. He called me to let me know what was taking him so long. Then Bug started to cry and my Mom went to him to find him covered in vomit. She worked on cleaning him up but my heart was breaking because I wanted to help him. I wanted to be there for him but had Lady Bug to care for. I did give in shortly afterwards, and asked my Mom to please take Lady Bug and I began caring for my son. I got him cleaned up and back in bed, but as soon as I did that, he was fussing again, and right when I was sitting on the edge of the bed, I pulled him close to me and he vomited ALL OVER ME! We both started crying. I felt overwhelmed and helpless. Bryan came home a few minutes after this, and came and took over. He told me to take a shower and get my jammies on. I complied.

During the night Lady Bug did great through. It was actually fun and easy, but tiring too. But so rewarding.

When I woke up the next morning both of my legs were swollen. Way more swollen then during my pregnancy, and they HURT. I could hardly walk. I dealt with it through out the day. By the afternoon I was really miserable. I called my Dr. Office and they told me that I was over doing it, and that I was officially on BED REST. NO walking around, and told to let my Mom and Bryan take care of things. This is a lot easier said than done. I like to do things myself. I tried to comply with the Doctors wishes.

That night I was going to sleep in my own bed, and Bug was going to sleep in his own bed since he was feeling better. I was happy to be in my own bed. Lady Bug was in her bassinet next to my bed. I tried to nurse her during the night but ended up coming out to the living room to nurse and sleep. It was a hard night. Lady Bug was up most of the night, wanting to eat, and I was not feeling good. My upper back had been hurting most of the day, and my feet and legs still hurt.

The next morning my Mom helped me to tuck my self in on the couch and elevate my feet while Bryan took Bug to his first OT appointment at the new location. With in an hour I was short of breath and not feeling good. Bryan called me and that is what made me realize that I was having trouble breathing. Taking in a breath. I called my Doctor's office and told them what was happening and the nurse said that I should go to the ER right away. So I called Bryan and told him come home as soon as he could and explained what we needed to do.

When he got home we headed to the ER. Filled out some paperwork and then we got a room assigned to us. Soon the doctor came in and asked me a few questions. He noticed my very swollen feet. He ordered a Ultrasound of my legs to rule out any blood clots in my legs. He ordered a Chest X-Ray to check my lungs. He ordered a CT San of my lungs to see if their was any clots in my lungs. My sister had a blood clotting disorder that was diagnosed while she was pregnant with her boys, and I did get tested for the same condition early on in my pregnancy and it came back that I did not have the condition. But it really looked like I was having the same stuff going on. The Chest X-Rays were done, the Ultrasound was done, and some blood work was drawn. Everything came back normal. We were waiting for the results from a urine sample and time to have the CT Scan done still.

In the mean time I got bumped from my room because a trauma situation was in route and they needed my room. I was pushed out into the hallway on my bed, in my gown, with a brand new baby who wanted to be fed (breast fed). I was a nervous wreck when the trauma case arrived because it was a young boy not to much older than Bug. Bryan over heard that he was hit by a dump truck. I cried. It made me think of Bug.

Shortly after this the Doctor came by saying that he was working on a room for me, and that he was working on getting the CT Scan done as well. Soon I had my new room, was able to start breast feeding, and then a guy came in to take me to get the CT Scan done. So picture this.... I am breast feeding Lady Bug, she is under a blanket, and I am laying on a bed that is being pushed down the hall way of the hospital. I felt all eyes on me. I was embarrassed, and wanted to slink away into a corner. I got the CT Scan done and was returned to my room to continue breast feeding. The ER Doctor came in shortly after wards and told me the results of the CT Scan. I have two blood clots; one in each lung or a Pulmonary embolism. I was admitted into the hospital and set up in a room.

They started me on blood thinning medication (inject ables) and have been giving me some pain medication. My mother stayed the night with me last night, so that Bug could be home with Daddy. Bug is very sad right now, and keeps asking where I am at. I miss him so much and try to talk to him on the phone several times through out the day. It has been good for me to have Lady Bug to care for. It has helped to take my mind off things. She is the best baby! I might be bios in saying this but she is perfect for me. I love holding her, breast feeding her even though it hurts really bad most times ( I am working on seeing a Lactation Specialist to work on things.), I love holding her, looking at her. And the best part is I love her just as much as I love Bug. I understand what it means to love all your children. My heart has expanded even more. I have enough love for Bryan, Bug and now Lady Bug. It is amazing to me. All my worries I had about how I would feel towards her when she was born are gone! I am happy to be her mommy, and Bug's mommy too.

Returning to the story...

I did end up being put on Oxygen last night because I woke up and the pain in my chest got worse. It was a very sharp stabbing pain on my left side in the back. The Oxygen seems to help but not to much. The pain medications just seem to keep things at bay for now. I am glad I am on them, because it was bad when I didn't have any on Tuesday night.

I can't believe I am back into the hospital. I am sad. I know that I need to be here to get better. I am being patient that the Doctors will take good care of me. I met with the hematologist today and was explained the future treatment. The lady was very good at explaining to me everything, but I have to admit most of it went over my head. I am trying to read about things on the Internet (thanks to my wonderful hubby who once again brought me my lap top to blog while I lay in bed for hours on end) I am pretty chipper most of the time. I am just glad that the ER Doctor did the CT scan of my chest. I am glad that something was found, because I have to tell you I really started to think it was all in my head. I felt like no one was believing me when I said I didn't feel quite right. The ER Doctor was surprised that I had noticed things so early, because he usually sees patients who have their hearts racing as the first thing they notice, and by that point things are way more serious. Not that mine is not serious, but it shows just how much of a woose I am when it comes to pain. *L* I am so sensitive to the way my body feels. Bryan says I am totally a "girl".

So I think that is going to have to be it for now.

I am going to leave you with some pictures taken in the past few days.

The happy family.

Me and Lady Bug getting some sun. She had a bit of jondish. (sp) (yellow skin)

Bug with Grammy.

He loves to play with Grammy out in the back yard. She taught him how to climb up on the teter totter swing all by himself!!!

Lady Bug sleeping after a feeding. She loves to have hear hands near her face.

Me at the hospital. See my feet? *sad* (can't believe I am posting this picture)

LADY BUG is BORN!!!!!

Well Lady Bug has finally arrived!

I am kind of out of it still so I am not sure how clear this blog post will be but I will try and explain what happened.

I went to my weekly Massage that morning and took Bug to McDonalds to have lunch while Daddy was getting his massage after me. I had been having a lot of lower pain during the day and finding it very hard to walk around. When I got home after the massage I went to lay down for a little bit. I woke up at about 3:20pm and went to the bathroom and then thought I would go a head and lie down some more, and climbed back into bed. About 2 minutes later I had a lot of pain in my bottom area (probably to much info, but I had been feeling like I needed to go #2 all day long but nothing was happening when I got on the toilet) so I just thought it was gas, but then I heard a dull pop sound and then WATER everywhere. I couldn't stop it!

I kind of freaked out! Called out for Bryan and he came running into the room and said yes, my water had broken. He called my friend Rebecca to see if she could take Bug for us, and she said yes. Loaded up the car; all the while I was having some heavy contractions, and trying to calm down. I was really scared. I did not think my water would break at home. He helped me change into some of his sweats and a new t-shirt and got me loaded in the car. I told him that I wanted him to take me straight to the hospital and then he could take Bug to Rebecca's home.

We got to the hospital and up to Labor and Delivery, and changed into a gown. The nurse was great helping me through each contraction.

Unfortunately, Lady Bug had been pooping in he amniotic fluid and this is very concerning. I guess she must have been under some distress at some point in the past week, which would cause her to do this. They were concerned that if I delivered vaginally that Lady Bug could breath in some of that Micomin and get sick from it.

The nurse checked to see what was going on with my cervix, and I was only 2 cm and my cervix had not dropped. I guess it was at a level +3, and when you are ready to deliver you are at a -5 with a dilation of 10 cm.

They got me on an IV and then went a head and started the epidural. I was glad, because the contractions were 2 minutes apart and HARD to me. Once the Epi took affect I was Happy once again, and then it was determined that the contractions were not productive, and they were going to have to start me on pitosin to help get them pushing Lady Bug down. So when that started I began feeling them again, and I was checked by the nurse and in the 6 hours I had been there I went from a 2 cm dilation to a 10 cm dilation. But I was at a +3 level Cervix... she was not dropping. I started to do some pushing, and after an hour of doing that I began to throw up. And I was in so much pain. The epidural was not working at all. I told the nurse I was done. And the Dr. On call started the paper work for a C-section.

I was wheeled into and prepped for the surgery and given a block that went all the way up to my hands.

Bryan came in shortly after I was all ready to go, and the surgery began. It was very interesting to be laying there and feel them tugging, but not any pain.

Lady Bug was born at 1:47am on August23rd. She weighted 7 pounds, 11 ounces, and is 19 inches long.

Here are some pictures.

And it looks like the offical winner of my contest is Renee' P! Congrats. I will get your free movie tickets to you as soon as possible. Thanks to everyone who played. It helped to pass the time while I was waiting for her to arrive.

Pick the right date-----update!

UPDATED FRIDAY AUGUST 23nd, AT 1:47am

If you want to play here is the link how to participate.

Dates picked so far!!!

August

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13th- Zack (Jenny's Boy) DATE HAS PASSED (SORRY ZACK)
14th- Alyson DATE HAS PASSED (SORRY ALYSON)
15th- Becky DATE HAS PASSED (SORRY BECKY)
16th- Jenny DATE HAS PASSED (SORRY JENNY)
17th- Brian DATE HAS PASSED (SORRY BRIAN)
18th- Jennie DATE HAS PASSED (SORRY JENNIE)
19th- Andrea DATE HAS PASSED (SORRY ANDREA)
20th- April DATE HAS PASSED (SORRY APRIL)
21st- Jake (Jenny's Boy) DATE HAS PASSED (SORRY JAKE)
22nd- Renee' H. DATE HAS PASSED (SORRY RENEE' H.)
23rd- Renee' P. *Bryan- also picked this date*

WINNER!!!!! LADY BUG WAS BORN AT 1:47AM ON AUGUST 23RD, MAKING RENEE' P. THE WINNER, AND BRYAN TOO :)

24th- Amanda
25th- Alyson's Bug (son)
26th- Mary
27th- Amit, Mrs. Mordecai
28th- Jandre
29th- Grammy
30th- Andrea (2nd try)
31st- April (2nd try)

* Don Alyson's Husband picked September 1st. I really didn't want to go to the next month and just wanted to focus on August. My Doctor did say that Lady Bug is measuring big so he really doesn't want me going past my due date but you never know how things really will work out. So that in mind, I will allow Don to have September 1st but no more September Dates...Please!!!! I don't think I can handle it. *L*

If you want to pick a date and join the game, leave me a comment and I will add you to the list.

Everyone can join in!!!

On my mind...

I am alive.
So glad that the weather has cooled off!
No baby yet.
Feet are very swollen because of the heat.
Called the Dr. office yesterday because right foot more swollen then left.
Tried to rest during the day.
Had dinner with girl friends at a Mexican restaurant (favorite food!) last night.
Good talking with my friends....MUCH NEEDED!!!!

Had a hard time sleeping last night. Same old stuff.
Bug came up stairs to sleep in our bed (unfortunately) at 5:30am
Bug slept in tell 8am!!!! This never happens. It was so nice to get up and get ready before Bug was on the go.

Had weekly Dr. Appointment.
Dr. was delivering a baby when I arrived, so I had to wait in the waiting room.
Bryan took Bug around the Dr. Office to burn off some energy.
Did the same procedure as last week to help move things along...since I will be 40 weeks on Saturday.
Getting nervous about the timing of everything.....who will end up watching Bug when I go into labor, how the labor is going to go, I don't know if I am having contractions right now.

Over did it? Part III (Dr. Appointment & Blood Work up results for Kitty)

I had another weekly Dr. Appointment today.

After the long day yesterday and fact that I didn't get much more sleep with Bug waking up crying a few times last night and then the peeing issue as well, I was pretty tired when Bryan, Bug and I headed out to the Dr. Office. I forgot my water bottle- :( I was thirsty the whole time.



Only gained a 1/2 pound. Yea! Measuring 39 cm. And Dr. did the procedure to help get things progressing with labor. It was NOT fun!!!! I acutally had a very strong contraction right at the beginning of the proceedure, witch made things worse. Not sure if the proceedure will even do anything. But I do think I might be feeling contractions through out the rest of today...light ones....and they are not close together. I need to get a pad of paper and write them down when they happen and then keep track of how often. (timing them)

But the one good thing from the appointment; I got an answer out of him on the fact that if nothing has happened (progressed) by next week August 20th then I can schedule to be induced sometime during the following week (August 25-29th) because by then I will be 40 weeks along and he really doesn't think it in the best interest of me or the baby to let me go to 41 weeks. He is not sure how much she is weighing, and is not planning on doing another ultrasound to try and guest on the weight, but he is pretty positive that she is 8 pounds right now. He can't be completely sure, and we will not truly know until she is born but he is guessing she is about that. That being said, he is sure she will be fine if he has to help my body get started on labor.

Disclaimer here....he can try to induce labor and my body doesn't respond and then it is up to me to do it on my own. HOPE NOT but it could happen.
Also, I could go in August 20th, nothing has progressed, he does the procedure again that he did today, and also schedule an appointment to induce some time during the week of the 25th and then I go into labor on my own, OR the day comes for me to arrive at the hospital to be induced and the hospital calls me not to come in because they got slammed with a bunch of labors and have no room for me.....and have to reschedule me. So that all being said...I am still going CRAZY!!! *L*

I am such a control freak and the fact that I can't control this is FREAKING ME OUT!!!! *L*
I will survive....I will....and this part of the process of being pregnant is suppose to be this way...I am trying to enjoy it too.

ok...now on to the Kitty!

Vet called me at noon with the blood work results and she doesn't have Hypothyroid problems, and she is not diabetic, but there is something going on with her kidneys. So..... we are to continue with the antibiotics twice a day and when she is done, 10 days later have her back in to see the vet to give a urine sample to check the kidneys. She might need more meds to work on the kidneys, and possibly a new food diet to help with the kidney problem. The vet said that the weight loss could be from the kidney's but she is not sure. So it is a waiting game for the kitty too. I scheduled her appointment at 10am on the 29th. Here's hoping I am not in labor at that time. *L*

Thanks....& more random thoughts

First off, I wanted to thank you all for your nice comments on my long post where I talked about my feelings about losing my Foster to Adopt Son last year at this same time. It really means a lot that you guys would care enough to say such nice things. Your comments have helped.

I am doing better today, and dealing with my feelings better. Time will heal me more, and once Lady Bug is finally born I will have my mind on other things. Good times to come.

I have been feeling really cranky the past few days too, because it is getting to the end of this pregnancy process, and my Body is Tired! I have been feeling guilty that I want it to be over. And have had several people tell me to just be patient and let Lady Bug come when she is suppose to come. I know I should not rush things...because as soon as she is born then I will have my hands full. Right now she is quite and not crying, and everything is contained, but to tell you the truth, I really want to start the next phase. I am not looking forward to the sleepless nights (oh, wait, I am already experiencing that with getting up to go pee every hour!!!).

I look at the clock each time I get up to go to the bathroom and here is the times I got up last night. *L*

I went to bed at 9:50pm

11pm

12:34am

1:55am

3:16am

5:26am

Then Bug was up at 5:58am

People talk about the strange vivid dreams they have during pregnancy. But I have yet to have any really interesting ones (well maybe 2 or 3 scary ones). I think it is because I only get about an hour of sleep and then I am woken up by either my legs aching or the urge to go pee. Could explain.

I was blessed by Heavenly Father yesterday by a church friend calling me to get my results for Visiting Teaching last month. I have to be honest I was dreading calling her back, because I was not very successful. I had hoped to get some notes to the sister's I and my partner (who was out of town) visit. But it didn't happen. I just didn't want to be a flake. I called the church friend back and she gave me exactly what I needed. She told me to cry my eyes out at my next appointment! *giggles* Well, she did say to do this but to explain to my Dr. what I am going through and try to get a plan in order so that I can see a finish line. I plan on doing this tomorrow at my next appointment. I had hoped that what the Dr. had promised me 4 weeks ago was happening (the procedure -stripping membranes) but he suddenly has changed his mind or is acting like he doesn't remember saying it.

What hurts right now....

Low tummy (below belly button), Making it hard to walk, sit, lay down, any position basically.

My skin on my tummy feels like it is burning....from all the stretching. I have stretch marks like crazy.

My hands hurt....all the time....the only thing that doesn't make them hurt is typing....well for a little bit. Sleeping is the worse...they get so stiff that I can't close my fingers, or put any pressure on them to help lift me up out of bed to go to the bathroom. I have tried an ice pack on my wrists to see if that will help, NOPE...in fact made it worse...so I tried Heat, but nothing....not worse though, just felt the same.

My feet are swollen, my nose is swollen (just noticed it today) and my hands are swollen. :( and because they are swollen they hurt and ache most of the time. :(

I can't bend over or squat to pick up things that I drop on the floor because my grip is gone. I get light headed/ and lose my breath when I walk up stairs....

my right knee gave out on me the other day when I was trying to get up off the floor when I was playing with Bug.

I know that many other woman who have experienced pregnancy have dealt with the same stuff and they survived...and it will be over soon....and I really am not trying to have everyone feel sorry for me. I am really mentioning these things so that I can go back and read them in a few months to remember how it felt. How unhappy I was when things get bad down the road, and they will (I will have good days and then not so good days) so I want to remember how I felt now to remind myself that it will not last. Hoping it will help me to get through what the future holds.

Well, enough rambling....

My friend Alyson wants to take me out to lunch today...since we have not gotten together much this summer. It will be good to get out and have some adult conversation.

Bug and Bryan I think are going to Mobius today.

I also have my Monthly Book Club meeting tonight. The book for tonight is the 4th book in the Twilight series - Breaking Dawn....and I have not read it yet! (actually I have yet to read the 2nd or 3rd books....I just have not felt like reading it. ) But I am planning on still going. I know that is weird, but I am the type of person who fast forwards to the end of the reality shows to see who gets voted off before I can watch the programs. *L* I get to stressed watching the show wondering who is going to get voted off, and the shows love to draw out the suspense and it DRIVES ME CRAZY!!!!

I know! I am already CRAZY! *L*

Forgot to mention....

I forgot to mention about yesterdays appointment, and since Renee' asked me in the comments if I was checked out yesterday.....I thought I would just update really quickly.





I did have Dr. Hilton check me and he said that I might be dilating a little, but my cervix is still very high, so it will be a while longer. *sad*



On to more exciting blog stuff to post about.


+++++++ What we did today.



Did take Bug to see a free movie today. It was Alvin and The Chipmunks. He really enjoyed it...and was dancing during the songs. He got so excited when I came back with some buttered popcorn! "I love Pop Corn!!!" he yelled at the top of his lungs right when he saw me. *L*



This afternoon, I pulled out Bug's markers and turned on the music and let him create ART!!! on some plain white paper attached to his Easle. He had so much fun running around and dancing and then coming back to the paper to scribble. I even had fun watching him.

37 weeks and 5 days

Had my weekly Dr. Appointment today. In fact today was going to be a very busy day for me. Right after my appointment I had to meet up with the Activity Days Leader at her house for an activity to the Temple for a nice picnic on the grounds. My Dr. Appointment was at 10:15am. I got there and was seen right away, witch was really nice.

I am measuring 38cm witch is good, did gain a few more pounds witch makes me sad, but maybe that is mostly baby at this point. *keeping my fingers crossed* Blood pressure was high though and my nurse thought it was because of the way I have been feeling from that Antibiotic medication. Just added stress that is all. Dr. Hilton came in and talked with me briefly and asked me if I was feeling Lady Bug moving around, and I stopped and thought, "Hey, I have not felt her moving around. Not last night, and not this morning." He asked me if I had breakfast yet this morning and I said yes. Then he said he wanted to send me over to Labor and Delivery to have some Fetal Monitoring done, to make sure she was OK.

So I quickly called my partner with Activity Day Girls and left her a message that I was not sure if I was going to make it but that I would call her right away. I headed up to Labor and Delivery and checked in and found out that the testing usually takes 2 hours. I called my partner again and told her that I would not make it, and then I called Bryan and told him what was going on.

I then got strapped up to some monitors to listen to Lady Bug's Heart Beat. Several nurses came in and out asking me questions and checking the stats, and thankfully after being there for almost an hour and 45 minutes Lady Bug's Heart Beat fluctuate 3 times in a 10 minute time span, witch is a GREAT Sign!!! So they released me and said to call my Dr. if I didn't feel her moving the rest of the day.

On the way home I ate my picnic lunch and by the time I got home she was wiggling pretty good. I have felt her on and off for the past two hours so I am relieved. I have to admit, I was not worried about it much until my Dr. wanted to do that Monitoring, then I kind of got freaked out. I was so relieved when the nurse came in and said they had just got 3 heart beat spikes. I wanted to cry. So now I am trying to relax and be happy knowing that she is OK, and there really is nothing to worry about.

Picture from www.clker.com

Tummy trouble...

I have not been up to sitting down and writing a post for several days, because I have had some sever tummy aches. I started taking some Antibiotics last Wednesday (see post) and the medicine really didn't settle well with my tummy at all.

I should have called my doctor before the weekend but I was trying to be a good girl and take my meds with out complaining to much. But by Sunday afternoon I was in pretty bad shape and Bug was no help at all.

I can't be to upset with his behavior because the poor kid was bored out of his mind from staying cooped up inside all day long. I was lying on the couch most of the day because I just couldn't get up except to use the bathroom, and that was a huge struggle.

Several times Bug came up to me asking me to wake up and I told him I was so tired, and didn't feel good, and he would get mad. After he realized that I was not going to get up and play with him he started to get destructive. Coloring on DVD cases, pulling all his toys out in the living room (dumping his toy basket) and also Lady Bug's toy basket in her room (they are all his old infant toys) and dumping crayons all over the floor- stepping on them and breaking them, and then taking my water bottle and dumping the water all over the couch pillows and couch. After much yelling on my part and screaming on his part I finally got him to pick up his toys and got the living room looking some what in order about 6pm. At least I was not going to trip on the stray toys any longer.

I got him into the tub for a bath and a bit of quite for me. I was on the phone with Bryan's parents when I had to get off because I could hear the water splashing all over the place in the bathroom and found water EVERYWHERE!!! I came out into the living room to calm down and when I turned around Bug was standing right behind me all wet and shivering. I told him to stay put; that I would go get his towel and be right back. I didn't want him walking back through the kitchen and into the bathroom on the wet floor for fear he would slip. Oh it has happened several times already, and Bug remembered and stayed put. But as I came walking back into the living room he was standing there peeing on my living room rug!!!! He did this the night before too but down stairs in his playroom/family room. I was livid...and started to cry. I turned away and Bug just started to laugh.....and laugh.....and laugh.....and I lost it! I must have looked like a monster as I turned on him and I told him I was not laughing! I grabbed his arm and put him in the "Time Out Corner" and said , "3 Minutes!" He started to cry. I grabbed the towel and wrapped it around him and walked away.

I called Bryan! I needed to make sure he came straight home from work. It was 8pm and he was due home by 8:30pm. I told him to hurry because I was at my wits end and I didn't know if he would have a son alive by the time he came home if he didn't get home by 8:30pm. I was crying really bad and just really upset. I then proceeded to clean up the pee. As uncomfortable as it was to get down on my hands and knees and scrub it up. When the timer went off I went over to Bug and told him he had the time out for peeing on my rug, and he said he was sorry for peeing on the rug. I then got his diaper on. Shortly Bryan walked in the door and was so great to take over getting Bug ready for bed and in the bed. Then he came up stairs and let me VENT! And boy did I VENT!

I called the Dr. office on Monday and spoke with a nurse and she told me to stop taking the Antibiotic but I also needed to come in and leave a sample to make sure that I was all better. But the results would not be in tell a few days. I went in and left a sample and then came home and slept most of the day. Bryan took care of Bug for me and allowed me to rest. It was much needed.

I am pleased to report that my tummy is doing much better, and I am not having so many cramps as I was having before. I have gone back to the normal uncomfortable feelings I have had with this pregnancy, and I am glad. I still don't like being pregnant, but at least I can keep food down, and don't feel like I am going to rip my own son's head off just because he wants to play with me.

I have a few pictures that I wanted to post and will work on that later today and maybe a few videos...but we will see. Uploading videos sure takes a long time.

Picture from art.com

Pick the right date, and you could win!

Contest time! Contest time!

I thought it would be really fun to play a game with all my blogger friends and family out there who are reading about my pregnancy.

I think you all know that my due date for Lady Bug to be born is August 23rd.

But I thought it would be fun to have you each pick a date that you think she might come and if you are right, I will send you a prize!

Not sure what that prize will be just yet, but I will find something for the winner.

So here is how it will work:

Pick a date during the month of August 2nd-31st.

Post your date in the comments.

(if two people pick the same date

then the first one to comment with that date will get the date,

and one who picked it second will have to pick a new date.)

I do have my blog set up so that if you don't have a blogger account

you can still participate by using the annonymous setting,

but be sure to sign your name at the end of your comment,

so I can put you on the date list.

Every couple of days I will post a list of the dates people have chosen

along with their names.

*If not at the end of each day*

The day she is born will be posted and if your name is next to that day you will win!

I hope you will all participate! It will help me to try and have some fun during this last month. I am getting really ready for her to be born. I want to do more than sit on my bottom typing on this blog and surfing the blog world and internet. It is getting old. I am hoping to get some of my physical energy back so that I can enjoy holding my daughter and playing again with my son!

So let the picking begin!!!!

I'm a....

Bought these cute shirts for the kids! Can't wait to see them wearing them! I see a photo shoot in the future!!!

Wednesday update

Another Dr. Appiontment yesterday. Nothing special. He did put me on some antibiotics because things keep popping up in my urin samples...so now I have tummy cramps from the meds. *sad*. At least that is what I think is going on. The tummy problems didn't start up until after I took my first dose. Keeping an eye on that though and if it gets worse I will call the doctors office.

It was a very quick visit once the Dr. came into my room. Bryan and Bug waited for me out in the waiting room. Then we had an appointment at the hospital to fill all the paper work out for the pre-admitting for the labor, and a tour of the hospital maturnity ward. It went a lot longer than I had hoped. Bug was getting really BORED!!! He was trying to be good but it just to hard for a 3 year old who has been cooped up in a hospital waiting room for almost 3 hours. We had hoped that there would be some babies in the nursery but they were all with their mommies...so he was disappointed.

We were also invited over to my friend Emily's new home for dinner last night. They have a beautiful home and so much land! Her two sons and Bug had SO Much fun! They ran and played out side for a few hours. It was a great evening. We had hoped to go swiming in their pool but it was a bit cool so it didn't happen. Bug didn't seem to mind to much since there was so much other fun stuff to do. Climbing trees, and chasing the other boys, and playing in the dirt. He got so much dirt on himself. In his mouth, eyes, and nose. But he was having fun. I wish that I had taken pictures....I even brought my new camera, but since I am so use to not having a camera that works I totally forgot to pull it out to snap some pictures. We have a tentative play date scheduled in a few weeks. I will try to take some pictures then.

We put him in his jammies for the ride home because I knew he would fall asleep and I was right. He slept in tell 6:15am, but when he did wake up his right eye was clamped shut and he was crying really bad. When I finally got a look at it, it looked like a huge clump of eye lashes were missing, but then I realized they were bent into his eye. I had to get Bryan to help me with some eye drops to help Bug and after a few drops we were able to help the lashes, and noticed he also had dirt in his eye. The dirt was probably bugging his eye and he was rubbing his eye and that is how the lashes got in there too.

5 minutes after we helped the lashes out he was fine....and began running around. He is now fine!

36 weeks 4 days

Funny Jandre that you would leave me a comment about wanting to see another picture of my prego tummy because Bryan has been bugging me to take one for the past week. I finally gave in yesterday.

So here I am in all my prego glory. Bryan thinks my tummy has dropped and that I am carrying her lower is a sign that things are getting closer to birth, but looking at this picture I don't see it. The shirt I am wearing is not all that flattering, but it is very comfortable at the moment. *L* I don't have to many articles of clothes that feel comfortable to wear right now. But that is to be expected....and I only have a little over 3 weeks left.

My Suite Case is almost packed. I just need to add my contacts and tooth brush and bathroom items. Since I use these items each day it is hard to pack them right now.

Scribbles and Reading

Bug was playing down stairs by himself for quite a while this morning. I am trying to learn to not hover over him and allow him to have some alone time to play. I think it is healthy that he plays alone from time to time. I know I should have checked on him earlier, but I really was thinking all he had was a stinky diaper, and I was not looking forward to having to change him. The smell is really getting to me lately.

Well, when I finally made it down stairs I didn't find a poopie diaper but rather a wall full of blue scribbles. I screamed, causing Bryan to come running down stairs. Luckily, baby wipes cleaned it right off. It was a stray marker that Bug found from our drawing on our face day. Check out this post if you didn't get the joy of seeing my son in all his glory.

There was also the hugest spider EVER!!!! in the hall way right above my head when I was screaming. I turned to Bryan when he came down the hallway, and I saw it right above my head!!! I screamed even louder. Bryan was shocked by it too, and he even said it was huge. Now if Bryan says it is big and he doesn't want to kill it because it will make a mess, then it has got to be huge!

As we were cleaning up the scribbles with the wipes (Bug was helping too- I made him!) Bryan said, we should take a picture. I told him that if I had to see this over and over then I would go crazy. I didn't want to be reminded of this at all. Bryan is going to try and get Bug's Art Isle back inside so that he can go for it on that thing rather than on my walls! It really was to much for me. With me being pregnant, and only a few more weeks to go, my patience has gone out the window! I feel like I am going to go crazy, screaming and yelling all the time. My body hurts and because of it, I am taking it out on everyone around me. Bug getting the brunt of it.

Dispite this crankiness that I have been going through, I have managed to stop and enjoy my little Bug! I love him so much and can't wait tell I can spend more one on one time with him. I know it will be difficult having two kids, but I know we will work something out. Either during Lady Bug's naps or when Bryan can watch Lady Bug for me so that I can get a little one on one time with Bug. I can't wait. I am trying to remember to be realiztic a the same time.

So here is one of those moments I experienced later in the day. He was helping me clean up his bedroom and putting books away and wanted to read. So I got the video camera out. He is so amazing! I love hearing his little voice so nice and clear! I hope you can all hear it.

He is READING! I know I have mentioned it before, but I don't think many people really believe me.

Enjoy!

Ultrasound Scheduled for today~UPDATED!!!

Go to the bottom of this post and see the results from the ultrasound.

This morning at 8:00 tell 8:15am I will be drinking 20 oz of fluid (water) to prepair for another Ultrasound to be done at 9:00am.

I am not looking forward to having a very painfully full bladder, and I am sure I will since I have been going pee every hour on the hour both day and night. So it is not going to be much fun.

BUT..... I am very excited about getting to see Lady Bug yet again. I love seeing her on the screen wiggling around, and hopefully see what she looks like when I feel her moving. I feel her moving all the time now. Sometimes it is fun, sometimes not so fun. I know she has got to be getting annoyed how cramped it is getting in there.

Bug is going with us today, and I am looking forward to seeing his reaction to seeing Lady Bug on the TV Screen.

The reason we are doing yet another Ultrasound is because 4 weeks ago I was measuring 34 cm - meaning 34 weeks along and I was only 30 weeks along. Dr. Hilton wanted to make sure he has the due date right, and to see if they can get a good look at her face. I guess the last Ultrasound didn't give a good look at her face, so that he could see if she had the markers for Down Syndrome. At this point I am 99.9% positive she does not have DS, because of all the other markers they look for being negative for DS, but Dr. Hilton just wants to make sure.

As of today I am 34 weeks and 5 days along....we will see if that stays the case after this visit. It sure would be nice to have her earlier than later if she is big enough. My Grandfather's Birthday was August 7th (same birthday as the little foster baby boy we had last year) and that would be really weird if she was born then. But August 8th would be even cooler....8-8-08!

But we will see....it is ok to hope though.

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Appointment went well. It was much faster than last month. Ultrasound only lasted about 10 minutes. *L*

Here is a few current pictures of our Lady Bug!

And we got a nice clear picture showing that she is a girl....no doubt at all on that.

Bug did great during the ultrsound but didn't seem to really care what was going on. He wanted to have a turn after I was done. When it was time for us to go see the doctor for my monthly appointment and go over the ultrasound Bug kept wanting to climb on the table. "My turn now!" He said over and over and over. It was funny.

Dr. Hilton told me that her weight is 6 pounds, 5 oz. (86%), so she is big. My tummy is measuring only 35 cm....thankfully, but that could be because she has dropped down into my pelvis more. I didn't gain anymore weight from my last appointment....*relief*. She is head down. Which I thought. I feel her kicking me on my upper rightside near my ribs more often. Today during the U/S her feet where on my upper left side but the placenta is up on that side so it could be a buffer and I might not feel her kick so much on that side. It could explain why anyway.

So my week to week appointments have begun. I am happy about that. Means I am reaching the home stretch. Dr. Hilton said they would not allow me to go past my due date. Since she is so big right now. In a few weeks he will do a proceedure that should help progress things but it might not work since it is my first pregnancy. But that he will be checking my cervix at each appoitment from now on.

So that is the news!

Really have been having a strong feeling she is going to come early, but we will see.

It just might be wishful thinking.

I had better get that hospital bag packed!!!!

34 weeks / 41 days to go

First off the cooler weather has sure helped me out a great deal. I seem to have more energy to get the house hold chores done like laundry, dishes, meals.

On top of that I washed all the clothes that I got from my baby shower yesterday, and folded and put them all away. I even had energy to pack the baby bag for the big day. It is ready with diapers, wipes, and onsies and drawstring sleepers for Lady Bug when she arrives.
I might have been going a bit over board on the supplies to enclude in the bag, but I remember that when we visited Bug in the hospital (10days old through 13 days old) he only had a diaper on and was wrapped up in a receiving blanket that the hospital had. They said they didn't have any onsies for the babies and since his birthmother didn't bring anything for him he only had the diaper.

I figured I needed to bring clothes for my little Lady Bug.

I still need to work on putting Bug's suite case together for when he stays over at either his baby sitters house (if it is a weekend) or at my friend Jamie's home when I go into labor. I also need to still pack my bag. Bryan said that he would be working on his. *whew* That is one less thing I need to work on. *smiles* I have started lists for Bug and myself but that is as far as I have gotten.

Hitaus?

Hiatus?

Just want to be honest~ not sure how frequently I am going to post. It has become increasingly more difficult to be comfortable in all positions. LOL Sitting, Standing, Lying down. All of them don’t feel too good at this time, and with the warmer weather, and no air conditioning it does not help. My lap top gives off a lot of heat and I am already kicking out tons of heat as it is. *smiles*

I just wanted to let you all know I am good, just uncomfortable right now. It will not last to much longer.

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Quick up date for the Holiday

Bryan chose to work yesterday to make some extra money, and Bug and I headed over to my friend Alyson’s house to have dinner, let the boys play and also to finish decorating the onesies that were at the Baby Shower. It was good that I got out of the house, into air conditioning *perked me right up* and I got into a creative HIGH designing onesies. I will try and get pictures of the ones that were done at the shower and the ones I did the other day. My camera is NOT working. L

Hope you are all having a great LONG Holiday weekend!Happy Belated 4th of July

I am sad to see my family go.

~VERY LONG POST~

I had such a great time with my sister and mom when they came to visit. I miss them both so much.

They arrived last Friday. It was about 9:45am when I checked their flight online for its status and learned that they were going to land at 10:10am. I still needed to dry my hair and drive to the airport. Luckily, we only live about 10 minutes from the airport.

I dried my hair, and Bug decided that he wanted to stay home with Daddy playing some game on the Internet. They were having so much fun. So I was off to the airport alone. I was a bit nervous that I would get lost, or not find the correct terminal, but our airport is really small. I parked in the perfect spot and fed the meter and headed inside. I did have to ask one lady who worked for United Airlines where JetExpress airlines flew into and she was nice and told me. By the time I got to the baggage claim area, I saw my mom. She came up to me and rubbed my belly and said "Hello" to her grand daughter. The luggage was quick to come out, and we were soon loaded up in the van and heading home.

Bug was so excited to see my mom. He said, "Grammy!!!" when they walked in the front door. She picked him up and gave him a big hug, and he asked her, "Where have you been?" He missed her a lot. My sister was greeted with a smile but no hugs because Bug needed to get use to her. At least he didn't scream or cry when he saw her. He soon warmed up to her when he realized that she was really SPIDER-MAN (Auntie Jen). When her super hero identity was revealed he was hooked.

I am Spider- Auntie!

Look at that Web action!!!

We had a light lunch and then Bryan and I had to head out for our Massages, so we left my mom and sister alone to take a nap and relax a bit, and get settled.

The massage was much needed! It had been two weeks and I was hurting. My upper and mid back were very tight. I have to laugh at what I must have looked like trying to get up on the massage table. I was struggling. I think I will have to bring a little stool for myself. LOL

When I got home I took my sister with me to see if I could find a Maternity Belt. We headed to the mall, and found one, and I bought it. Here is a picture that my sister took of us in the dressing room.

Being Pregos in the dressing room....GOOF BALLS!

I didn't notice that she had one of those tummy pillows under her shirt. I guess the matirnity stores have these in the dressing rooms to help you see what the shirt will look like when you put them on. My sister kept bumping the tummy pillow into me until I finally realized that she was wearing it, and then we got a good laugh. She wanted to take a picture of it and me wearing that stupid maturnity belt. I tried the belt the rest of the day (it is worn under my shirt * I just have it out in the picture) but it hurt more so I took it off. And returned it to the store.

Bug had so much fun with Grammy and Auntie Jenny that he didn't want to go to sleep that night. I think it was 9:45pm when he finally fell asleep. He was sleeping in his own bed in our room and I had to stay in the room with him to help him calm down. I was laying on my own bed, and Bryan came in at 10pm and found me asleep. It was sooooo hot!!! It took me a hard time falling back to sleep once I got my self ready for bed. The bed time routine for me. I still think my mom and sister are the ones who brought the heat with them from California.

The next morning we took it easy in the morning. We headed out for Lunch at Red Robin and had the yummiest meals! Bryan was able to come too. He was a huge help intertaining Bug while we ate, and talked. Then my sister wanted to go to Starbucks to get a yummy drink. Chocolatety Chip Frapatino. (forgive spelling and if I have the name wrong, I don't shop there and don't know all the correct names) I got a taste and it was very yummy. We dropped Bryan and Bug off at home and then we were off to the Baby Shower. It was such a HOT day!

My friend Alyson did a great job planning the party. Decorations, food and games/activites. It was fun. Here are some pictures that my sister took with her camera.

Me and my sister before heading to the Baby Shower.

One of the activities for the guests to do was decorate onesies for our little baby (A.K.A. BABY LADY BUG) Everyone did a great job. It was so fun to look at the end projects. And now each time when I put one on my little one I will be reminded of this special day and my friends and family who were there to celebrate with me.

The cake that Alyson got at Safeway! Ladybugs!!!! And since I already have the Snips and Sails and Puppy Dog Tails, I needed the Sugar, and Spice and Everything Nice. :)

Here are some of the gifts that my Mom and Sister gave to us.

My Mom made these bibs on her new sewing machine. Lady bugs!!!

Baby Lady Bug's first "RAG" Doll.~ From Grammy (my mom)

My Mom made this slip to go under the crocheted dress that my MIL made for Baby Lady Bug to wear at her Blessing. See here for the post of a picture of the Crocheted dress that my MIL made. Now both Grammy and Oma have made something that she will wear on her Special Day where her Father (Bryan) will get to bless her with name and all the other Blessings that Heavenly Father wants to place upon her. I can't wait tell this day! Bug's was very Special because we had just had him sealed to us as an eternal family a few hours before at the Temple and I still could feel the spirit so strongly.

When Baby Lady Bug is blessed we are hoping that both my Mom and Bryan's Parents can be there, but we will have to see how things pan out with timing of things and cost of things.

My mom made this beautiful Quilt for Baby Lady Bug! My mom does such good work. I love each quilt that she has made for me and now my kidlets. She made one for the Foster Baby Boy we had last year. I could not pass it along with him when he was removed from our home, and keep it in a box that helps me to remember him.

The cutest outfit my sister gave to Baby Lady Bug. Look at those Bike Shorts!!! So Sporty! She also gave Baby Lady Bug a cute Minnie Mouse stuffed animal in a pink dress, and some jammies that are from the Disney Store. Unfortunately, my eyes are closed in the pictures and I look really weird in the pictures. Since I author of this blog I get to approve the pictures shared, and I just look so bad in those pictures that I can't get myself to share them. *smiles* :P

My friend Alyson gave me this cute baby calendar to help me document all the important things about Baby Lady Bug for each month after she is born.

Here are the guests at my shower. Everyone must have known the colors I have picked out for Baby Lady Bug's room. Green and Pink.

L-R Front row: Natalie, Dana, Alyson, Wendy. Back row: My mom, Kristi, Me, My sister (Jenny), Rebecca, Tami.

When the shower was done we went and bought some supplies to make Brats (spelling) for dinner. They are kind of like Sausage Hot Dogs. My sister made them and we ate them outside on the patio furniture. It was such a nice evening. Hot but so nice. I was so tired after all the activities of the day.

When we came inside Bug was running around and fell and hurt his knee on a stray metal cookie cutter. It some how got down in the living room. I had seen it in with his toys earlier that morning but got distracted and forgot to pick it up. I must have had some idea that he was going to get hurt from it. I wish that I had just picked it up when I first saw it. Unfortunately he fell on it and cut his knee. Don't think it needs stitches, but it was bleeding pretty good. I got kind of woosie from looking at it. We cleaned it up and bandaged it up and then it was time for him to get to bed. So I spent another evening in my bedroom trying to help him to calm down and fall asleep. It didn't take as long as the night before.

Sunday we headed to lunch at TGIF~ worse service and FOOD ever! Very disappointing. We then went to Wal-Mart and Target looking for a window cover thingie for my sister's car. She and her family are driving to Disneyland for a fun time, and the opportunity to meet up with a blogger friend. We had no luck finding the window cover thingie. :(

We also went to Starbucks again and got some yummy drinks. I got a vanilla bean frapochino. (spelling) It was very yummy.

When we got home my sister and mom went wild in Baby Lady Bug's room. I have not had to much energy at decorating the room. It has been hard on me~ kind of depressing really, so I was grateful for their help. I had a really cute boarder that I wanted to put up. My mom suggested putting the left over lady bug wall decorations on the boarder. It turned out so cute. My sister and mom also changed around the crib and the curtains in the window. I don't have a picture of the window curtains yet, but I will once I finish sewing on a panel. Just a side note, the curtains I have were my curtains when I was a baby. My mom made them for my bedroom. I love the idea of having them for my little girl.

Here are a few pictures of the finished room.

The dresser will be in front of the window so that is why you don't see a dresser.

My sister took this picture of Bryan, Bug and a very HOT prego me on Monday morning. My feet have swelled up so much from the heat. *pout* I guess my sister has another blogging friend who has the same couch as us.

Bug had hurt his knee again. He keeps wanting to take off the bandage off and he had been crying just before this picture was taken. The wound is looking much better today and I think it will heal up fine.

I took my sister and mom to the airport at 4pm on Monday so they could catch their flight home.

It was so good to see them. I miss them. I hope they had a good time, even though it was so HOT here this weekend.

I am tired!!! So I am going to close this post for now. I hope you have enjoyed the up date.